December 2009
43 posts
I’m scared.
I won’t go into the new year thinking that it’s wrong to say.
I’m scared of being alone.
of not being good enough.
of being too much.
of loving the wrong people or the right people at the wrong time.
I only hope that their are people out there who are scared too.
Who are scared to take that first step, because what if you do fail?
Then what do you have?
...
“you got a piece of me, and honestly, my life would suck without you”
– Kelly Clarkson
I forgot to mention
My Church goes to a senior home every 1st and 3rd sunday to perform a protestant service. We went on New Years Eve, read the scripture, sang christmas carols and played bells.
The most memorable part about the whole afternoon was when we asked the congregation what they wanted for Christmas.
Do you know what the overwhelming response to that question was?
Peace on earth and to stop the...
Crazy Dream
So, I was pregnant in my dream.
While in the dream, my water broke in my house. Actually I think it broke in the grocery store. We go to the grocery store to get stuff, Mrs. Silvey has set something up for me in my house to, I guess give birth on, a girl from my church Brittany was there. Oh, as we were coming back from the grocery store, I saw Omar in a new purple sporty Mazda, and I try to yell...
The things fairy tales are made of....one day...
I’ve realized, love and relationships are what I blog about the most.
I had an epiphany in the car today.
As I’m sitting in the back seat with a close male friend and a female aquaintance, I look at the attention the male is giving to the female.
But then I realize, there is nothing special about this attention, because it is what he gives to all females he is attracted to.
Yes,...
There are some pretty cool people out there
but there aren’t a group of people cooler than my REAL friends, who have been there for me through my moods, and tears, and loudness and joy and pain.
Christmas means more to me because of all of you.
Much Love
JB
I've never been invited...
…to someone else’s house for a holiday.
I wish I could lie and say that I’m feeling the holiday spirit, but generally I’m not.
I just don’t feel special. That’s all.
I am glad that I made the gifts I made, and I hope my friends appreciate them.
I don’t know, guess I’m just feeling strange about things lately.
But I want to wish everyone a Happy...
“Never be afraid to love.Never be afraid to just be. Cast away the chains of...”
– Song by Chic Corea. Not sure who wrote the lyrics.
Random Thought
I just want to take my pretty skirt, pretty coat, pretty make-up and pretty heels on a walk on a pretty street with a pretty boy.
I am normally opposed...
…to saying I don’t like things, when I do not have a valid reason to dislike them.
Last night, several of my closest friends and I were just hanging. We started talking about how girls always say they don’t hang out with other girls. “Nah, I can’t hang with girls” “I can’t stand girls”. My male friend says something to the effect of, every...
RIP Moses Malloy Jiggets
Time heals everything....
I didn’t realize how hard I would take a non-break up, break up.
I miss knowing someone is there to hold me. To look into my eyes and see me.
To laugh with me and let me cry. To love me both physically and mentally.
To be my friend.
It’s time to take a break from people for a while.
“Without hope or agenda - Just because it’s Christmas - And at Christmas...”
– Mark from “Love Actually”
Christmastime is Here
So, I’m broke for Christmas again. That’s okay. I’m thinking about writing all my friends a letter and maybe making something for them. I want them (the letters and such) to be pretty.
I also think I’m gonna go to the consignment store we have and see what they’ve got that may inspire me for my friends. They aren’t gifts, they are tokens of my appreciation for...
What I want my 2010 to look like
Revolution (of the musical kind at least!)
Red Lipstick
Small comfortable lady like heels
My Business getting off it’s feet
Playing shows
Writing music
Silver nails
More skirts, less sweat pants
The Gym….way more often
A Driver’s License
Being able to enjoy myself on my own means
Keeping the love in everything, even when I’m alone
One of my favorite songs I’ve written:
Dan...
Love these Chips when I went to Liverpool
hayleycakes:
NOM!
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Today was a good day....
but I feel some type of way about seeing my ex-boyfriends status’ on facebook about his new girl and all intensity of it, when I know the intensity might die quickly and it’s slightly pretentious to write that shit on facebook…
or maybe I’m just jealous….
"So What" →
cool
There is a simplicity to cool.
A one syllable word.
A lifetime of want.
Born into
or
Bred
Cool is where its at.
We can see how many cats nowadays are trying to bring back cool.
But it doesn’t get any cooler than
Otis Redding
Miles Davis
Jack Kerouac
Sean Connery
Billie Holliday
James Dean
Coco Chanel
Angela Davis
Nina Simone
Thelonious Monk
Charles Mingus
Coltrane
and so...
I heave a sigh in a state of perplexity. I am not the woman you want, I’m the woman I was meant to be. But part of me wants all of you. I shudder at the thought of this being true. But no greater truth has ever been spoken. I leave life in the hands of the one who made it. My heart is broken.
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25 and naive?
So, I’m a singer. But I very passionately work as an educator. Not the main stream, I teach chorus educator(nothing wrong with it, and I may become into that, who knows!) But as for right now goes, I’m that after school, private lesson, mentor who wants to show you how excellent you are and open your mind to endless possibilities of creativity and art.
There are 5 things that when...
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Let's Start at the Very Beginning
The days of all access are here. I am a little overwhelmed, and actually a little embarrassed at my lack of internet-saviness.
But, I have begun, and I shall continue. I will blog about my music, my life, my friends, my feelings about what is going on in the world, and share some of my favorite things with you.
This is where it starts.
“Who knows where the road will lead us, only a fool...